Hm... Well hello friends,
long ago since I wrote a Journal and tonight (It's actually 4am here), I feel like writing a Journal. I think this sometimes happenes when I work (I work as a driver in nightshift) and I think a lot, I need to write it down then. Also my Heart wouldn't stop telling me that till I do and most of the time I write it in some kind of "Diary".
Tonight (Gosh I know this will sound stupid to many people) I thought about what I wish to be the most. Not that I don't like myself. I like who I am and what I am. It's just one little thing. I really really wish to be a Hero. Maybe just for myself, for a day, for some reason or for a special Person. I always have the deep urge and feeling in my heart to help to make everything better. To give my hand and pull out of the darkness, back into the light. Saving~ Just like Lloyd. He is truely a Hero in my eyes. He does everything to help his friends and save the world. I wish to do the same. Even if it's just the world of on Person or my own world. I think that's why I love Lloyd so much and he is one of my greatest Heros in my Heart! He often makes me think or wish that I want to be a Hero-
I am selfish, naiv, feel guilty (for no reason in most cases), curious, annoying, easy worried and impatient. I know all of this facts about me and they are a part of myself. I know I can annoy people pretty easy and I try my best not to do so, even if it's burning in my chest. But I also know I can be a good and caring friend who would go trough hell for the people I love. And maybe that's something like beeing "a Hero"~